new beginnings

New project. Wow. It feels like I've been in A level for a week but it's already the third quarter. But that's nostalgia for another day. This year, I know what the story will be but I don't know if I should do a short film or two trailers. But I should probably start with what the idea even is.

Long, LONG, story short I went through a breakup last November and I want to express my decision through the five stages of grief. Obviously it won't be an exact replica of it because that's weird and probably disrespectful to my ex, rather a based on a true story situation. Problem is, I don't know if I'm capable of fleshing out a story into five minutes, whereas two trailers would still be difficult but to a much lower degree. So I made a comparison table.

sophisticated notes app table

Looking at it now it really just looks like I'm considering the trailer option because I'm lazy. But both are gonna be hard, I don't know why my brain is processing the two trailers as easy. Also, I found this while making the chart.

timestamp included to show i'm actually working

I have absolutely no idea why I stopped at anger but I was brainstorming at like 2 am and I guess edited at 8:55 .. I know I had a more concrete idea in mind but I probably fell asleep and forgot about it. Back to work I guess.

I'm not sure if this is important to whoever is reading this, but this project is not some sort of plea to get back with my ex. I made a hard decision in November and I want to organize my ideas and present them so I can fully understand them myself and help him understand. I am done grieving, I reached acceptance just as the main character of the film will. This film will be me closing the chapter on the past three years of my life and beginning a new one. I hope I'll be able to depict the process accurately, as turbulent as it was.